How to feel good about ourselves everyday :)

Ps, if you're feelin good already, hi-5 ya'all! :D

Here's some ideas...

1. Make 3 lists :

1. Our strengths - like I'm good at doing photogrids lol anythg counts in my book...
2. Our achievements - I've hold my breath for 3mins in the water... yupp counts!
3. One of the things you admire about yourself - oooo... I thank Allah for putting me into a "quite pious" family so I don't easily fall for guys that like me even though they come so often.

2. Pay special attention to your personal hygiene (oopss busted haha X_X)

    eg : style your hair, trim your nails, floss your teeth... it does wonders..

    (no wonder they say cleanliness is part of the iman... well well )

3. Eat good food as a part of a healthy balanced diet. ( I'm eating potato wedges for breakfast... stay away from me haha :D)

4. Exercise regularly. Go for a brisk walk everyday.Take more vigorous exercises 3x times a week. (Fuhh been there done that... gets you shapin like a cracker! Heaven yesss!!!.. )

5. Ensure that you are getting enough sleep. krik.. krik..

6. Make your living space clean , comfortable, and attractive. Display items that remind you of your achievements or of the special times and people in your life.

7. Do more of the things you enjoy doing... like staring at pretty people and so on... haha

8. Set yourself a challenge that you can realistically achieve... I mean REALISTIC... not kill yourself and expect to come back to life... nuh uh.

9. Do some of the things that you've been putting off.

10. Spend more time with those you love and hold dear. At the same time, try to enlarge your social circle by making an effort to meet people.

Yay! So there you go! Get your butts movin people.. I'm out.. tata :D

Feelin weird... again

Ya Allah, Ya Allah, Ya Allah, I'm happy but at the same time I'm nervous, scared, and feelin kinda fragile, maybe its partly becuz I can't be with You fully right now. I miss You. Ya Allah, I need someone, a life partner, someone I can share all my thoughts with, my inner most secrets, and he can tell me anything too. I wanna play my guitar for him, I wanna make him the happiest person on earth, I want to live as one and bring him to Jannah with me. I don't care if there's so many hot guys in Jannah, I just want him, my one sole partner, the one that's meant to be with me for eternity.

O The Almighty, I'll never give up, I'll never let these tears smudge my words, cuz I know... somewhere out there, there's a guy whose meant for me. Please guide me... and him... wherever we are. ameen.

Uncle Allen said we have to change ourselves in order to attract the person that we want to be with in the future, make sure our criteria fits each other, that's what prof Muhaya said so too. I remember she said... write down all the things, criteria that we want in our future husband and see if our characters match it, if it doesn't, start changing yourself towards it. I think it really makes sense. Ok let's see what are the things I'm lookin for in my man haha :D

These are the criteria that I want in my future husband insyaAllah :)

1. Responsible
2. Pious yet cool
3. Cares about my feelings
4. Gentle
5. Kind
6. Generous
7. Sweet
8. Charming
9. Honest
10. A good father to my children
11. Loves me for who I am as a whole not my beauty
12. Adventurous
13. broad chest ( ewewewew i didn't just said that ew urgh nvm just let it out huh)
14. Open minded - likes to try new stuff and take risks
15. Always be there for me when I need him the most (aww so sweet hehe) - where on earth am I gonna find someone like this lol, nvm kunfayakun, nothing's impossible for Allah :)
16. Expert in silat ( I'm hoping he can teach me too hehe)
17. at least 5cm taller
18. at least 5 years older

So based on these criteria.. I have to start being...

1. Responsible for all my actions
2. Pious yet cool (demure haha)
3. care about all his feelings (try to understand his emotions... ehmm okay.. i can do that lol)
4. be gentle w him
5. always be kind to him and others
6. Generous no matter how rich I am
7. Sweet and very understanding
8. charming (keep my dignity as his wife)
9. honest- always tell the truth cuz its always the best
10. be a good mother that will bring my whole family to Jannah insyaAllah
11. Love him for who he is not his beauty, his traits and personality (will he bring you to Jannah with him?)
12. Adventurous- live life to the fullest
13. slim and curvy figure
14. open minded ( don't be judgemental)
15. always be there for him, be his life companion no matter where he is.
16. Expert in silat( hmm haha maybe I can silat with him just the two of us)
17. at least 5cm shorter than him
18. at least 5 years younger than him

okay guess that's it. Now.. time to start my journey.. yay.. let's see where it takes me hehe 

toodles :D

mama's 1st shake party

Dear pretty blog,

yesterday was mama's first shake party and it went so well!!! ya Allah, alhamdulillah. mama was so happy... well still is... haha that she wants to make another one tomorrow which.. to me, is not a good idea becuz we need to send the invitations at least 2 days before the event so that people will have more time to adjust their schedule but i donno... she's just so excited and she asked me to ask uncle Allen!!! uuurrrghh I'll just let her do it on her own.

Now back to d shake party, it was really awkward at first, we ran out of words to say to each other and mama was busy on the phone back there, she was just leaving all the conversation to uncle allen and aunty as. to me, that was really impolite actually, uncle allen is just here to help, but mama just left everything to him. But never mind, hopefully she'll be able to do the next shake party herself. No way am I goin to ask from uncle Alln. Let her do it herself. Now will u excuse me i'm goin to make my shake
:D cheeerrsss :D

Scared and maybe still in the comfort zone. u can do it. Allah knows.

Ya Allah, I feel so stressed out cuz I'm goin to sit for exam soon and I don't know how to juggle between herbalife and university. They all made it look so simple but i'm still scared. huh. relax. There's a solution to everything. and u're a muslim, ask for His guidance dude! Yea, I asked but now its up to me to change my life. all the students did it like snap. with their fingers. they do face rejections like I did w paklong. so I have to persevere and I'm so hungry right now uuurrghhh. Ya Allah, I want to qualify for spectacular but it means I hv to get 4000 ringgit! uuuurrgh Ya Allah, I'm strong, I can do this, I just need more courage cuz apparently with this speed I'm not goin anywhere. Urrrgghh. I'll do it. walk and talk. practice don worry k. u can do it Amy. U're trying to help ppl lose weight. u're doin the right thing. don be afraid k. Allah loves u that's allthat matters. He knows everything in ur heart. Just believe in urself k. Gud luck. u never noe till u try k. Take care. :D

Deep down..

 Some days are just inevitably insignificant. Today is a perfect example of one of those days. But it doesn't have to be that way. I do realise that. I can do so many things yet somehow something is still missing and I so terribly want to find that missing piece of my life that keeps me awake at night. Darn you! Can't you not bother me? There's so many other significant things to look forward to in life. In fact, the time is inappropriate... at all. I mean, hey you're only 18 and you're already thinkin about all this crap that leads you no where in precise? Yup.. I can't deny it.. it keeps torturing me even though I tried to stop it,tried to get over it and tried so Fu**ing hard to ignore it but its still there.. stuck. I'm stuck... urrrggghh!!! you know how that feels? When you're stuck but nothing in the world can help you right this instant unless.. you change your own point of view. I know.. I know, that's why I'm stuck. I know everything, the bad luck, the bad perceptions, the falling reputation, your self distruction.. I know, its scary. The problem is, I just don't have the will power in me to overcome all this stupid crap, is it typical for an 18 year old girl to feel this way?.. uurrrghh.. I'm just so lost right now.. I'd better go lie down. huh

Yang nyata

Aku berserah,
dan terus berserah,
Lalu,
Pada satu detik malam hening itu,
Hati kecilku memberontak,
Marahnya api tiada penjuru,
Mengapa bersedih ketika gembira?
Mengapa menjauhi yang menyayangi?
Mengapa berdiam ketika dipanggil?
Sedangkan takdir itu pasti akan terjadi.
Yang dijanjikan itu pasti tertunai.
Tidakkah kau percaya dengan takdirNya?
Tidakkah kau yakin dengan kasihNya?

Aku terdiam dalam kegelapan yang berjalan,
Malu dalam diri ini tidak sanggup ku tunjuk padaNya,
Aku malu!
Selama ini tanpa ku sedari,
Aku hanya menunduk pada air mata,
Berserah tanpa arah tujuan,
Mengejar harapan yang palsu.

Kini,
aku kembali padaNya.
Tiada lagi ku ragu..
ampunkan daku..

Ku hanya cinta segala yang dicintaiNYA

jujur ku katakan,
aku ingin merasa,
merasa segala yang ku lihat,
yang ku dengar,
yang ku tahu,
tanpa dapat merasa,
memang aku enggan,
pabila ia meraihku,
ku menolaknya jauh,
ku tahu,
segalanya cuma permainan dunia,
sengaja menguji ku,
sengaja meresahkan jiwa ku,
aku bingung,
segalanya sudah ku tahu,
padahnya,
bisanya,
aku tahu,
tapi masih ku tak mampu,
ya Allah,
mungkin bukan aku seorang yang berperasaan sebegini,
mungkin ada lagi yang sedang sepi,
dan sengaja menyepi,
jika benar,
jika segalanya aturanMu,
pertemukanlah dia padaku...