suffer for 4 months or 40 years

Dear stranger, life is good these days, partly cuz its the mid-term holiday and my whole family went back to my hometown in Kedah. I'm here at home with my bibik. I know, I should be sad cuz they left me but I'm actually on top of the world. I can do whatever I want and no one can give a damn about it. I wanna study hard and smart while they're gone but its hard. take now for example. I'm gonna have my addmath tuition with teacher Belinda tomorrow and I still have the time to write this not-so-important post. That's what I mean. I can't put my priorities straight. I wish I have a really really extremely close friend that can keep me company right now.
ok, I'm setting it, by 11 o'clock I'll have to shut down my laptop no matter what, but first, I have a little urgent message to tell.

Dear guitar and novels,

 this is devastatingly hard for me, but I have no choice but to put you aside until my SPM examination is over. I love you guys so much but if I want to excel in my studies, I have to put you aside no matter what especially the novels. Even if I have the free time I can’t spend time with you even a bit, you got that. I hope you understand. It’s  for the best. Although for the guitar, I’ll still have to practice cuz my tuition with teacher XiaoMing is still ongoing and it helps me focus so that’s a good thing. I wanna suffer for 4 months and not the next 40 years or more of my life so I’ll have o strive hard. That’s why I didn’t follow my family to go to my hometown. I wanna study and if I don’t it’ll be a total waste. I don’t want that. If you love me, you’ll  understand. This is hard for me but I’ll have to make a start. Wish me luck.