Futile

Ya Allah,
I miss You,
yet You've been with me all this while.
I'm sorry for being so ungrateful these past few days,
I've been lost in my own little world,
insecurity has been following me around all day,

the world just seems so cruel,
it makes me miss You more than ever,
I feel so fragile like a piece of glass,
yet that piece of glass is safely wrapped up,
sealed,
invisible...
untouchable...


Ya Allah,
I've always turn to You for comfort,
I've always asked for wishes my whole life,
but this time,
the wish i'm asking for is ineffable,
sometimes I stop breathing,
guilt will conquer me every time,
but I kept goin,
believing,
even though I knew,
deep down,
I would never deserve something so perfect.